I thought i am fine
I thought i am okay
I thought i am tough
I thought i am strong
I thought i am..just the way i thought i am.
But, no. May Allah will always be with me.amin amin..
Thursday, September 10, 2015
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Thursday, April 09, 2015
Wednesday, April 08, 2015
im not easy to handle if you dont know how to..not me alone. All women are. They are hard to handle BUT you will find it easy when you learn. Have you heard about kasanova,playboy? I think somehow we women owe them a recognition. They treat women well, right? and that's how women fell for them easily.
You know me well when i said something harsh, you dont take it seriously. But, if you respond to it emotionally, i dont really know you either then.
Sometimes, it is just how you take it. How you respond to it.
That book might help.a big help.
Tuesday, April 07, 2015
Sunday, April 05, 2015
"Abang, what is the best thing happened in your life?"
"Marrying you" *Cliché enough but cant help to be soooo melting
"Awww so sweet......tipu." hahahhaa
"ingat senang ke nak jumpa.6 years."
?? 6 years..kenal 3tahun jer before we met again and decide to get married.
"6 years? Bukan 3 ke"
"dari umur 24 usaha cari tau"
"ohh okey.gatai abg nk kawin awal2"
The first day of fasting month last year i had spotting.very very tiny spotted and i guessed it was my circle after a year of having Kyla. I did not feel any pain though. Until the 8th day if fasting.i still had the little tiny spot of blood.it was wierd because as far as i remember my circle was like 4 or 5 days. But i went to work as usual until after lunch *i didn't fast as i thought it was menstrual. I felt really hurt at my below tummy and it was not normal. I went to my class but i can't handle the pain anymore.it was really hurt till i can't move.i tried to sleep but i became stronger and stronger. I called Farah to send me to clinic as in my mind it was something normal gastric or anything like that BUT not pregnancy problem.i had not any idea bout that. Until the doctor urged to have a pregnancy test and i was laughing at the moment as i thought impossible. I wa like just a month passed of my 3months depo injection and i thought it was toooo waayy early to get pregnant..*as people says that depo cause you difficult to get pregnant. But ita was damn wrong! Hahahaa.
Or i was so fertile.teehee.so at the clinic, i was really shocked after doc said there was a bun in the oven.hehe. I didn't know how to react as i thought it was early. Then, the real problem came as the doc couldn't see anything in my womb as it supposed to be big enough to see it. Then she suspected me of having ectopic pregnancy! I went to the hospital immediately to make sure of it and it cause me a week stranded in the ward. I don't want to even remember the experience, i wish. I went through a number of vagina checking and it was..urghh..it was wierd as the thrid day in the ward, the docs still can't locate my child..but then they were determine that I'm not having ectopic so they let me discharged. I remembered i had not feel anything for 3weeks after that until a week after raya. I was spotting again but this time it was pretty heavy compared to the previous. It was becoming more and more blood after that till i have to change.my pad and panties for a few times. But i felt nothing.no pain. But then the next it becoming worsen. My husband sent me to the hospital again and while waiting in the emergency room, then i started to feel hurt at my below tummy. As i was checked. I felt a rush if blood flows down there and the doctor claimed that i was missing my child. At the moment, i cried as i felt guilty of not taking a good care of it. I felt irresponsible. But i have Kyla, at least. If not, I think probably i went crazy.
Monday, March 23, 2015
'abg, mana beg echa adik?' (kami beli pasar malam dungun last week)
'jab, dlm kereta'
Kyla menonong ikut blakang abah dia
'Nah dik, gi kat mummy.buka ngan mummy.beg baru'
'ehh baby dapat beg baru, buka'
Kyla buka plastik, amik beg. tak nampak lagi kartun frozen sebab dia pegang blakang beg. dia pusing beg..
'hhh hhh hhh hhh' Kyla excited. imagine je macam org lelah macam mana.. macam tu lah dia pagi td.. sambil buat 'tok tok tok' *part grandfather clock lagu 'do you wanna build a snowman'..pastu lompat kuda sebelah kaki yg memang favorite move dia time excited tengok abah dia balik dari office.
ayoo. boleh dikategorikan addicted tak?
Sunday, February 08, 2015
|UC silver @ Bali|
|tempat staff buar silver|
|the gallery *en Redhwan in the picture.|
Wednesday, February 04, 2015
|this is Uluwatu Temple, the first place we went on the first day. since our arrival was quite early (around 2pm) so we were able to go to Uluwatu and watch Kecak Dance after checked in hotel. ( Hotel Wina Holiday Villa -Halal food restaurant)|
|me on top of the cliff. nothing else i can say except Subhanallah. Indian Ocean, please return our MH370|
|love this picture.|
|preparation before the dance. look at the sunset. Subhanallah|
|Sita dan Rama.maybe.hehe|
|enFM was like over the moon to get pictured with this creature.Hanuman.|
|Bali hard rock cafe - i dont know why we went there. KL has HRC as well. but do we care? no.|
|next destination, Pasar Sukawati. we grabbed two paintings here for our new house. hehe.|
|Tegalalang. too bad because it was not the time where you can see all the yellowish paddy. they were just after the harvest period. but still, the pictures are all beautiful here. hijau dan segar.|
|i just don't have any idea that this trip is for celebrating their 12 anniversary! (if im not mistaken lah, 11 or 12..hahaha) patut lah lover dovey sangattt..|
|we went to coffee shop. does it look like a coffee shop for you?hahaha.|
|then we went to Kintamani mountain. look at the scenery. beautiful but be careful. it is still active|
|lunch on top of the hill. sejuk macam cameron highland. buffet. eat and eat until you gemuk. hahha.|
|the third day: at Taman Ayun.|
|now i believe he has some sharp skills as photographer.hhahahha..|
|the mosttttttt fav picture of all time in Bali.|
|green: first day, black: second day, Purple: third day|
|itinerary in detail. for the price, it is still relevant for 2015 i think. and actually we saved a lot here and there. maybe you can find other tricks to save your budget.|
Monday, April 28, 2014
Friday, February 14, 2014
insyaAllah..dah ok. aminn...ya Allah..jauhkan hasutan2 syaitan nih..