berkongkang ke Bali, Pulau Dewataraya

It was like a dream comes true lah,trip ke Bali ni. I fell in love with Bali after i saw Tanah Lot for the first time on internet and for me the place is like..heaven on earth and i promise myself to be there one day. Asking FM to approve ths trip was tricky you know, in the middle of finishing our new home, of course the money was a very critical issue and a trip to anywhere seems like a mission impossible. I dont know why i have a gut to tell him about this trip and he was like 'uh uh, no..bla bla bla'. Okay. After few times discussing about this, okay fine, we did not discuss but ME keep telling him about bali this, bali that. Hahaha. Then, i went like, ok fine this is not working, maybe next time.maybe he will approve after i've sign the form for him to kawin dua. Who knows. Wait, abg. In your dream. X bali pun tak apa lah, istanbul ada...bhahahaha.

ok, to cut the story short, one fine day, he called me at office and asked me about flight ticket to Bali. I was like, maybe he was just checking , not really going. But, then i learnt that he was serious. I dont really know the reason for him to approve this trip and i chose not to care a bit since HELL Yeah, im going to Bali, thats it.haha. so, these are the photos. Have a look and be jealous, tq. Bye.

this is Uluwatu Temple, the first place we went on the first day. since our arrival was quite early (around 2pm) so we were able to go to Uluwatu and watch Kecak Dance after checked in hotel. ( Hotel Wina Holiday Villa -Halal food restaurant)

me on top of the cliff. nothing else i can say except Subhanallah. Indian Ocean, please return our MH370

love this picture.

preparation before the dance. look at the sunset. Subhanallah

Sita dan Rama.maybe.hehe

enFM was like over the moon to get pictured with this creature.Hanuman.

after Uluwatu, we went to have our dinner at Jimbaran beach. be careful, the price was perghhhhhh... you might spent hundreds here. in ringgit. but we are so fortunate because our supir had advice us on how to avoid too much spending on the meals- just avoid the lobster. that's it.hahahha

Bali hard rock cafe - i dont know why we went there. KL has HRC as well. but do we care? no.

the next day, we went to this place-forget the name but it is the place to produce silver accessories. nice place and NICE price. bhahahaha.. you know wht, okay fine it is too long to tell here, buat post lain lah nanti cerita balik..sweet sangat en FM sini. hehe

next destination, Pasar Sukawati. we grabbed two paintings here for our new house. hehe.

Tegalalang. too bad because it was not the time where you can see all the yellowish paddy. they were just after the harvest period. but still, the pictures are all beautiful here. hijau dan segar.

i just don't have any idea that this trip is for celebrating their 12 anniversary! (if im not mistaken lah, 11 or 12..hahaha) patut lah lover dovey sangattt..

we went to coffee shop. does it look like a coffee shop for you?hahaha.

then we went to Kintamani mountain. look at the scenery. beautiful but be careful. it is still active

lunch on top of the hill. sejuk macam cameron highland. buffet. eat and eat until you gemuk. hahha.

the third day: at Taman Ayun.

now i believe he has some sharp skills as photographer.hhahahha..

the mosttttttt fav picture of all time in Bali.

 

okay, Tanah lot picture is coming.. tomorrow i will upload. hahhaa.

okay now, seriously, i am about to brief you on our itinerary for this trip. it was working for us as we had a smooth and fun trip.so maybe it will help you guys out there who are planning to go there next time. the first rule is you have to choose the right supir! i am going to introduce you the best supir ever.hhhahhaa.. pak ali! he was so nice and kind. and he knows all the halal food restaurant all over Bali. so no need to bring Maggi or what so ever. he will stop at kedai halal whenever and wherever you want. call him. +6281338206878. Basically, as you can see below, it is our trip.

green: first day, black: second day, Purple: third day

itinerary in detail. for the price, it is still relevant for 2015 i think. and actually we saved a lot here and there. maybe you can find other tricks to save your budget.

sapa yang nak basuh?

if its holiday..no work then the battle will start..between me and FM. what battle?who's going to wash Kyla's poop.hahhahaa.. yes.. 

'abang..adik yak..abang basuh'

'alaa...sayang laa..'

'xder2..abang basuh..'

'sayang laa'

ok..fine.

at 9 am..the time for Kyla's bath. 

'abang..mandikan Kyla'

'abang ke?'

'yer..tadi syg dh basuh yak'

'ok..syg gi amik air panas'

'ala...abang yg mandikan..abg la amik'

'nak amik x nak..ok abang amikkan..syg yg mandikan..'

'x nak..ok ok..syg amik air panas'

urghh...

and i know..the battle will go on and on and on..

*Kyla..pls grow up fast..and wash it on your own!please...bhahahhaha.

tragedi susu..

this morning..when it all chaos to get ready to work+to send Kyla to baby sitter (BS)+to prepare her thingy+to hold her so that she will not put up her volume up+to get her daddy's cloth to work ready...THEN i remember i did not get the milk bottles yet. yes i do breast pump and pour it in 3 bottles everyday and give it to Kyla BS. basically the idea is eventhough i went to work she still can have the breast milk. and be healthy. he he.

so i run to the refrigerator and take the bottle full of milk but suddenly i dont know how.. i missed it and it fell on the floor, and crack. then i stepped ahead to take the towel to wipe it but unfortunately i stepped on the slippery milky floor and 'nangka busuk' is me. i thought my FM will shouting and ask what happen but wht i can hear is he happily have a happy talk with Kyla. urgh..

after a while..*still shocked with the tragedy..bhahaha.. en FM ask me wether to put the car seat in front or at the back..i just silent and give him a stress look

"dah kenapa buat muka macam tu?"

silent still-straight to the kitchen..to finish the milk thing..

"sayang..kenapa?" he shouted..

"sayang jatuh..sakit j***" i shouted from the kitchen

"huh?"

"sayang jatuh..sakit j***!!" a lil louder i shout..

he rushed to me and ask if anything bad happen..any injury...

"xder apa..stress je nih.. botol adik kat mana satu lagi?" tanya dalam nada stress..

en FM diam..and he runaway..hahahah..

#milk tragedy

* rahsia..

dalam banyak2 rahsia..ini yang nak bagi tahu..hahaha..sebenarnya mislaiha a.ghani ni adalah seorang yang manja keledek hehehe,suka merajuk,cepat nangis,cepat terasa--hanya dengan En FM sahaja. hehehe.. try tnya tuan badan kalau tak percaya.

contoh:

keluar dari bilik tidur..tengok atas meja xder..tengok kat dapur xder..tiba2 jer menangis.*menangis xkuar air mata la..en FM tergopoh gapah keluar dari bilik ridur.. "kenapa..kenapa sayang"..muka mcm cuak.. "mana botol susu kyla..xjumpe" 

hahahhahahhaha....

Kyla 68 days

dah 68 hari Kyla hari ni..so far..im so happy with her growth.nothing bad happen except last 2 weeks she got fever but it last only 2days and she was ok then. the most difficult time to take care of her is i have to wake up like 4 times every night.sharp every 2 hours she will make a lil noise and it is her signs asking to breast fed her.

the beautiful of it is..every time she was full and she fall asleep again, it gave a great feeling to me. every session tu..memang kerap la tersengguk2. ngantuk. looking at her face sleeping at night.. it such a beautiful moment. 

first day my baby hantar rumah baby sitter

kelam kabut nyer pagi tadi... kene siapkan diri sendiri nk gi keje..suami nk gi keje..dan mektok kyla tu nk gi klinik & baby sitter..apa perasaan mummy kyla?he he he.. xder perasaan.. hantar jer..tapi bila tgk dia atas dukung kak na tu..hurmm...mcm sayu plak. dah la dia sengeh2. dia x paham ke mummy ngn aboh dia nk tinggal dia..huhuhu..tapi at least lepaskan anak first day rumah org dengan hati tenang..baby senyum jer. bagus Kyla nih..tnggu ptg karang plak..gi amik dia..

masuk office dengan hati happy..happy setelah habiskan masa kat rumah jer.. boring sangat..nasib gak layan kyla.kalu x..mau x sampai 40 hari pantang aku dah masuk office..huhu bleh ke gitu..

jadual kelas x der lagi..so untuk minggu nih..kita round2 kampus dl..huk huk

Kyla Binti Fairuz

continue: the story goes like this.. kelahiran Kyla

Baring saja atas katil dlm labour room tu..aku bleh dengar suara baby nangis..masa tu..aku xrasa sakit apa2 lagi..bleh rilek senyum2 kat nurse lagi..nurse datang..

“mislaiha yer..”

“yer”

“erm..ni husband xleh masuk eh..”

Aku terus senyap..ya Allah..xleh masuk..mcm mana nih…redha jer laa

“dalam sejam jugak aku duduk sorang2..dalam sejam tu jugak aku dengar patient lain duk nangis2 sakit..even aku bleh dengar mcm mana dari mummy tu mengerang2 sakit lepas tu baby keluar and nangis..risau nyer jgn cakap lah…

Lepas sejam nurse datang lagi

“Mislaiha, sebab sekarang x der ramai orang..so kita bleh panggil suami awk dulu masuk..tapi kalo tiba2 ramai patient yg masuk..suami kene keluar eh…”

“ok”

Alhamdulillah…syukur ya Allah..at least sekejab pun x per laa

Dengar dari luar

Nurse: awak fairu mohamad yer?mintak IC

Lepas nurse datang tunjuk IC betul ke tak suami..lepas tu baru en FM muncul

“ abang..”

He was so supportive through out the night.. dari jam 2 pagi aku start sakit teruk..org cakap sakit masing2 lain2.bahagian aku plak sakit bahagian paha ngn punggung,,sakit yang rasanya tak tertanggung..hebat nyer ciptaan Allah. Mcm mana Allah dah tetapkan perempuan akan merasai sakit tu dan akan dapat tahan sampai keluar..en FM saksi kesakitan yg amat malam tu.

I fought through the night with the pain. Sampai lah ke jam 6..bayangkan..seksanya ya Allah..teringat semua dosa yg pernah dibuat..en fm setia ditepi pinjamkan tangan lengan badan sekali.. semua aku pegang disebabkan sakit. Walaupun sakit tak reda pun tapi at least aku ada someone untuk teman.

the story goes like this.. kelahiran Kyla

Ingat kan beranak awal..lagi2 anak sulung kan..risau terlebey laa,.perut plak besar..dah x larat nk bawa..so ive decided to take leave earlier than ive planned before..i thought one week before the due is ok..but reffering to my not so larat to carry the baby plus the lemak2 dalam perut kan..so..2 minggu sbelum tarikh due..aku dah chow balik kampong.kesian kat en FM kene ulang alik jenguk isteri terchenta dari kemaman setiu every weekend. *alaa 2 kali weekend je pun..huuuhu…tapi lagi kesian kat si isteri sbenarnya..menangis je keje..rindu beb.

Tunggu punyer tunggu tarikh due..1/7 sepatutnya..hari yg ditunggu tiba namun..xder apa2 yg kurasa..so every morning I will check around..mana tahu kot2 pecah ketuban dalam mimpi..hahaha..frust jugak laa..yes it is..waiting for the moment that u know u will give birth in any time is really triggering..somtime it is frustrating when it turns out “ohh..blum lagi”..rasa sakit je sikit..terus nk pegang telefon nk ccall FM..huhuhu…

2/7 rasa mcm biasa.. malam tu call en FM mcm biasa..borak2..still remember en FM told me that night..”sayang..hari ni dah 2/7..dah terlebih sehari” huhu..what to do..the last thing u can do is..wait , wait and wait.. lepas letak phone..sambung main Sudoku..* memang hari2 mengadap Sudoku..2 minggu kat kampong..dari level beginner sampai ke level expert aku buat,,hahhaha..harap2 anak dalam perut jadi adi putra lah kononnya..kikiki.. tepat jam 1210am..rasa mcm lain jer..bangun dari baring atas katil,,rasa mcm air keluar..kencing?xmungkin…langkah je..terus rasa banyak air keluar..SAH..tgk warna jernih..try hidu..x der bau..*giler skema kan..ikut apa yg nurse kata..terus capai phone..”abg, rasa mcm dah pecah ketuban..” ingat2 balik..apsal aku call dulu..x gi bg tahu mak dl..hahhaha…then bg tahu mak..mak suruh rilek2 dl..tunggu esok katanya.* to all future mummies out there,,jgn ikot yer.cepat2 gi hospital..huhuhu..en FM dari kemaman terus balik dungun amik my mother in law..dia kata ngntuk sangat..suruh dia tidur dl kejab..esok pg baru smbung drive.pagi2 kul 7 dia dah sampai kat rumah,,tunggu gak rasa sakit..x sakit2. Dalam kul 10 baru gerak gi hospital setiu..berangan nk beranak kat sana sebb hospital baru..x ramai orang..layanan mcm first class plak.

Sampai hospital..terkejut nurse bila kata kul 3 pecah ketuban *hahhaa..takut kene marah nyer pasal..bg tahu dia kul 3..bukan kul 12..dia kata sebb aku dah postdue ..cukup 40 minggu dah..kene tunggu 12 jam je kat spital tu..kalo lebih 12 jam..kene pg HSNZ jugak..hadoi..ingt x nak laa..ramaiiii…pengalaman check bukaan jalan buat pertama kali mmg “mengujakan”..hahhahaa…xder laa sakit..tapi mencabar jugak laa..hihihi..duk dalam wad..dalam 3 jam jer..cukup 12 jam..terus kene hantar ke HSNZ..naik ambulan lah jawabnya..masa dalam wad..en FM, MIL and mak ada teman..3 org duk lepak tepi katil x der org datang halau pun..hebat x hospital setiu tu..dah laa semua baru..melepas jugak laa nk merasa beranak kat situ..

Jam 3.30 ptg naik ambulan gi HSNZ..sampai2 check bukaan jalan lagi..xsampai 1cm lagi pun..hadoyaiii…doctor kata kalo lebih 18 jam..dah kene induce..cuak dah..ramai sgt yg duk bercerita kalo masuk ubat sakit teramat..tu yg risau sakan..kat situ saja..2 kali check jalan..aku kira2 dah 4 kali dah aku kene..hurmm..tu xder apa2 lagi tu..masuk wad jer.. check jantung baby..mak, MIL ngn en FM duk luar..x leh masuk dah..masa check jantung baby..ya Allah lenguhnya.dia suh mengiring dekat 30jam.wey lenguh wey..nk nangis rasa..last2 doc kecoh2 kata jantung baby mcm lain macam..laju sangat katanya..dua tiga kali ejas..laju jgak..masa tu baru 2 cm..doctor tu check jalan..mak ai..kasar..yang tu mmg sakit..tapi tahan jer..disebbkan masalah jantung baby..walaupun baru 2 cm..terus kene masuk labour room!aduh…ekstrem sungguh pengalaman pertama itu..masuk je labour room..apa lagi bermula lah hikayat kisah bersalin aku..malas nk citer panjang2..dari kul 11 aku masuk..tup2 kul 730 baru start teran..sakit??xyh cerita..nk mati rasanya..teran2..rupanya baby x nak kuar..mummy pun xleh nk teran dah sebb sakit lama sangat dah..dah abis tenaga..terus emergency csec.ekstrem kan?nnti ada masa..i cerita dengan lebih setail sebab musabab dan cerita susah senang I dengan eb FM dalam labour room tu..

So..tepat jam 848pg 3/7/2013..Kyla binti Fairuz selamat dilahirkan.berat 3.9kg *mana x kene bedah nyer..xleh nk kuar.besor sgt kepalanya kot..walaupun ada problem jantung laju and she was warded in icu for 2 days because of that..alhamdulillah..she was ok then..and now..she is 23 days old and she is sleeping soundly beside me..dengan sihat walafiatnye…thank you Allah..

En FM demam...

En FM demam start kelmarin..semalam mmg teruk..bawa gi klinik..berpunca dr sakit tekak.semalam check tekak dia ok lagi..setakat mcm pink2 merah jer..pai tadi still ada sisa2 demam tapi dia sakit tekak makin teruk. check punya check..dah nampak putih2 bulat kecik kat dlm tekak..adoi...tgk mcm mn hari nih..pesan suh beli ais krim vanilla..hopefully akan ok..syg doakan abg sihat cepta..semoga Allah kembalikan kesihatan abg cepat2..amin..

1st June 2013 - Cherating

these are among the pics tht we took. niat di hati nk jadikan satu album..tapi..album tunang dulu..masih duk dalam laptop jer..honeymoon krabi?sama ler jugak..ntah bila nk di printkan nye punnn x tau. anyway...hopefully yang ni akan berjaya.. at least dh upload dlm blog ni.. kire mcm album jugak laa tu kan.. huuhuhuhu

1st Anniversary EVER..

happy..puas hati..suka..thnks for en FM for being soooo supportive to make sure all my plan go smoothly well planned. tambah2 dia ikut sama naik semangat..and of course thnks for being the photographer. hehhehe.. and of course.. terima kasih untuk semua kasih sayang yang diberikan selama kita bersama.. thank you soooo much and i love you.. wait for our picnic picture ..later on..kalau rajin nk edit dan post LAH..kalau x..selamat laa duk dalam laptop ni.anyway.. wish us great fortune and blessing from Allah please.. 

*uhuuuu.. abg, thanks for the anklet.. LOVE it !!!!! so so so much.

1ST JUNE 2013

To the only man I love, Abang FAIRUZ MOHAMAD:

Pertama: thank you for being a great great husband, sentiasa di sisi sayang..jaga makan pakai sayang..sentiasa bahagiakan sayang dan…terima kasih for giving so much LOVE to me.

Kedua: sorry for everything I’ve done yang buat abang marah..sedih..kecewa.. please sokong dan support lah sayang sentiasa supaya sayang boleh baiki kelemahan sayang dan jadi isteri yang lebih baik buat abang..

Ketiga: sayang janji dengan abang Fairuz yang sayang akan mencintai abang selama sayang diberi peluang.. I promise to myself that I will always comfort you ..honor & respect you.sayang akan sentiasa jadi pemberi semangat abg untuk terus berjaya dalam hidup..sayang akan support abang, bersabar dengan abangdan insyaAllah sentiasa bahagiakan abang sedaya yang sayang mampu..

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY, ABANG FAIRUZ.

I LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE MY EVERY EVERY EVERYTHING.

                                                                                                                      Sayang,MISLAIHA

ok..start the new start..kind of..

towards the due for delivering my FIRST ever baby..and of course my first anniversary  this coming Saturday, what we have to do is just forget everything behind especially the bad, sad & ugly thing and focus for the days. preparation for our first anniversary really trigger me so much. want to have a very simple but special. so we did buy a bunch of small candles yestwodays..hehehe..planning to have dinner inside the hotel with lil romatic sense in it..hahhaha.. and do some decoration i think.. but still thinking.. of course no surprise since i have no capability to plan it ..*my perut so boolat and i dont have strength to do it myself..so i decided to plan with him and cherish the moment together without any surprises.. except for the present. takkan lah kene bg tahu hadiah apa kan..hahhaha.. *mcm lah dah tahu nk beli apa...argghhh... abg nk apa??baik jgn tanya..kang ada dia jawap nk sony xperia Z10 tu..teuk dahi kang..

i booked the hotel last 2 weeks .. Swiss Garden Cherating for only 1 night.. and we will check in on this coming Friday..yeay dh dekat..

i just need to prepare a small cake or cupcakes and buy meals for the dinner.. a very simple one.. xnak beria sangat... just to make it private and special.. i think a piece of pizza is justtt fine. kan?the momento is most important..

hurmm..ok...need to plan it further..

*en FM, i know u will read this..so ..ideas ideas ideas needed.. ok.

kecewa dengan diri sendiri..

datang lah suatu masa ..aku akan kecewa dengan aku sendiri. aku lupa bila kali terakhir aku kecewa dengan diri sendiri..tak pernah ke? sebab aku tak ingat pun. tapi malam jumaat lepas akan jadi ingatan sepanjang hayat. setiap kali teringat pun terasa nak nangis. terfikir kenapa boleh sampai ke tahap itu cetek nya pemikiran.dek kerana fikir melampau apa yang tak sepatutnya..sombong dengan kepercayaan sendiri. rasa apa yang kita fikir ni betul..sedangkan jika di 'twist' kan..sekelip mata saja boleh menampakkan dangkal nyer pemikiran.

lebih menyakitkan bila kita sekaligus mengecewakan orang lain. orang yang benar2 memikirkan yang terbaik untuk kita.org yang tak pernah mempertikaikan kejujuran kita..dia boleh tapi dia pilih untuk tidak..dan kenapa aku tak boleh buat benda yang sama?

dan ..disebabkan itu ..aku kecewa dengan aku sendiri..

en FM, im truly sorry and i promise to myself..i will never ever do the same thing again. 

pesan org tua-tua..

setahap mana kita percaya pada pasangan kita?mak mertua ada pesan..walau apa pun yg berlaku..baik mana pun pasangan kita..jangan percaya 100%..rasa tekanan yg amat ntuk redha akan pesanan itu..kerana setakat hari ni..100% is the right number that i can give to him on his loyalty..adalah satu benda yg susah untuk tidak percaya benda yg kita dah percaya..from the first day i have the gut to accept him.,masa tu dah tanam dah..dia percayakan aku..so i have to trust him, and honestly..he is the greatest man i ever met and i really believe him.

'abg..betul ke org cakap jangan percaya kat lelaki 100%' semalam tiba2 rasa nk bertanya..

'erm..betul..jujur abg cakap..memang betul' dangg!tiba2 sebal rasa.. so, maknanya aku x bleh percayakan en FM 100%?macama mana nih?serius rasa tertekan ..kenapa tertekan sebb on that moment ..even smpai saat ni pun..i can say i trust him 100/100..macam mana nk kurangkan kepercayaan itu tanpa ada sebb yg logik..tanpa ada apa2 isu..i have to reduce my trust on him because   of no reason..but i have to because it says so..'u can not trust man 100%'  thats it..

terus aku senyap..mcm sedih sebb benda yg kita rasa betul..tapi kene juga buat seperti yg kita rasa x betul..rasa mcm bersalah sangat nk ragu2 kat en FM. mcm benda mengarut..

'sayang percaya kat abg x? en FM tanya lepas lama aku senyap..yer la duk pikir kan..

agak2 nk jawap apa? nak je jawap yer...percaya sepenuhnya..tapi bila kita tahu jawapan kita tu x selari dengan apa yg dia bagi tahu td..aku jadi blur,,nk jawap mcm mana..nak jawap tak lercaya..dah lari dengan apa yg aku pegang..mcm x jujur..mcm menipu pn ada..last2 jawapnya:

'entah..tak tahu' betapa susah nya nk jawap dengan jawapan tu ..sebb aku tahu jawapan aku lain..sedih giler nk jawap mcm tu..kalo dia sedar..mata aku dh berair..tiba2 takut..takut dengan realiti yg lelaki x bleh nk percaya sepenuhnya...

'abg xtahu laa..tapi buat masa ni alhamdulillah abg percayakan syg..insyaAllah xder apa lagi (aku tak tahu ..tapi rasa nya en fm nk bg tahu yg dia boleh dipercayai..rasanya) ..satu jer kene  ingat..kita berdepan dengan MANUSIA..' bila dia kata mcm tu..bleh faham lah kan,,anything can happen in the future..

aku senyap lagi..

'tapi..' dia sambung

'bukan x bleh nk percaya langsung..paling tidak 99.99..' terfikir kenapa abg cakap mcm tu..maybe dia bleh rasa yang aku mcm sedih dengan isu ni..so..kira mcm nk pujuk..ke tak? entah ..,tapi 99.999 tu buat aku rasa lega..yer..kira sikit je laa nk kene kurangkan kan?

apa yg ble aku cakap..he has my trust.thats it. 

bila dah terlebih sikit...

petang td dlm ofis..terfikir2 apa nk bg kat en FM untuk anniversary kami..pikir nyer pikir..mmg tak tahu..adoi..last2 nk nyer tgk apa yg dia suka..yer laa aku kenal en fm pun kejab jer..terus tunang..kawin..kadang mai jugak blur..dia bkn jenis bercerita ttg dulu2..pasai gf dia dulu pun..mmg x citer..tp elok jgk ..sebb aku bkn jenis buleh dengar citer bab2 tu..ada yg monyok sehari..*nasib bkn jenis mengamuk..just akn jadi diam kalu sedih or berfikir..Dan...nak dijadikan cerita ptg td,gi la masuk FB dia..tgk pic2 dahulu kala beliau..hurm..apa nk buat dh takdir..heehe..tgk2 pic lama dia terbaca satu komen yg agak mengcengkam jiwa..adoi..gamba lama..komen lama..ingat kan aku bertabah..tapi giler jeles rupanya..abes pujuk dah diri sndiri..pujuk nyer pujuk dlm hati kata tu komen lama..citer lama..last2 aku tutup pc..yer la dr nk balik kul 445 jd kul 520 dek kerana duk ngadap komen2 tu..heehehe..xpasal2 over thinking..moody skejab.siap2 kemas..balik rumah..dh ok sket laa jiwa kacau tadi..tapi rasa lg laa sikit2..last2 nak jd citer..maghrib tu dia tgh ngadap laptop dia..aku sj nk bergurau..tp rasa mcm over sket dek penangan ptg td..siap tumbuk2 blakang dia..terbayang2 komen2 fb td..pastutumbuk lg...mcm geram pun ada..haahahha..kejam x?en fm x bersalah pun..gurau lagi..siap cubit blakang laa..tarik rambut laa..last2.aku gi tarik telinga..ya allah lupa sangat2 yg dia tgh sakit telinga tahap kronik..punya bersalah aku rasa..mintak maaf mcm hape jer..apa yg dia ckp.."syg sakit..serius sakit.." try nk peluk blakang dia sambil rayu2 mntak maaf..dia reply apa.."syg jangan..duk blakang sket..jangan.."nada dia urmm..jgn ckp la..mmg terus nangis aku..heehehe..apa lagi..dh mmg jenis manja keledek kata mak aku..nangis dan nangis..bersalah nya rasa pastu dalam pada masa yg sama aku sedih sebb kene marah.hahahha..the end of the story..like usual lah..en fm jugak yg kene pujuk aku..heehehe..sebb aku duk sedih nangis2..kesian kat en fm.dia plak yg kn pujuk..sedangkan aku yg  buat hal..moral of the story..jgn layan perasaan  sorang2..hilangkan ragu di hati .. past is the past..mcm kita xder cerita2 dulu..kan?kan?

counting days: 16 days to go ..our 1st anniversary.

until this moment..i never thought that i will meet someone who loves me that much as en FM does and i never believe in myself that i will love someone this much as i do to him. stil, i got so much love left to spill. mohon agar Allah berikan seluruh ruang yg ada dalam hati nih untuk hanya dia seorang...wht you give you will get back..and if u r lucky enuff..u will get more. thanks abg.. tq so much. 16 days to go.. it will be so meaningful as we are expecting our first baby really soon..1st july.

hobi pelik..

sy suka gigit tangan en FM..sekian.

ok...sy tipu...sy suka gigit tangan,bahu,lengan dan blakang dia juga.. sekian lagi skali.

how lucky are you..

 this is the pic he sent me last night..what a great view he had on the platform. i always said to him.. u are so lucky to have the opportunity like that.. to be surrounded with the sea and be a witness of God creation.. so beautiful... *but i never mention how unlucky i am to be left alone here..hahahahhahaha... kiddin.