bila teringat...

tengok je gamba2 lama..sekeping2 gambar memory tersimpan dalam otak di pancar kan..hurmm..rindu la kat korang...korang ingat tak:

* hari2 lepak nescafe..x der duit pun lepak gak
*korang ingat tak panas duk jalan2..lalu tepi library..buka tempat hantar buku tepi dinding sebb nk rasa angin..
* lalu depan library..pintu depan dia tuh..berenti jab kalu ada orang nk keluar atau masuk..sebb nk rasa angin..
* korang ingat tak science of da'wah: ustaz cina tuh..x pernah bg assignment
* makan mamak hari2 kat HS cafe..
* konon nk jogging..jogging laa kat femail sport centre tuh..seminggu cukup..pastuh malas
* demam main badminton..penat sebb main sambil gelak
* demam squash (fara n midah)
* demam swimming...rela pergi cari tight..ngn baju..hahahha...
* naik motor awin sampai 3 orang! 4 org kadang2..bengkek je tuan dia..hahahha
* demam theatre..cath bath...omg..teringat dewan tepi cafe sumayyah
* demam gi tgk citer hindustan...
* demam friendster n myspace..hari2 pergi turun online..apa dah nama tempat tuh..lupa.wanno demam myrakan!!hahhaha
* demam gi malis..ini dah last2 ..
* demam bundle kat OTK...hahahhaha
* demam chicken wings OTK juga..
* demam CG chicken rice!!rela bawak kereta x der lesen gi sana
*demam overnite...sampai tidur dalam kereta..yang mangsa 2 orang lagi lepak mamak..kah kah kah...
*banyak lagi beb....

Dream..

last night after having a glass of coffee at Mesra Mall with a bunch of 'idiots'...hahahhaa..ok a bunch or 'smarties', we left the place with a disappointment because the failure to get 'tickets of 3 seats that are not separated' for the movie 'the other guys'..hurmm..si farah suggest,

'kita tgk jangan pandang belakang congkak lah',

is not that i dont want to see it but miss Zaza already give negative comment bout that movie

'tak best..biasa je, nak tgk pun bleh gok..OK lah'

so, hurmm..x der semangat lah nk tgk...ohh while we was queing before the counter, Lyn had a beautiful moment to cherish for..she met her cousin..i said beautiful moment because i could see how her face was last night..glowing. at that time, i miss my cousin. i have one that really close to me when we were kids. everywhere we go we'll be together especially when he came back to out home. its something that i will remmber till the day i die.

cousin, is someone that can be really close to us just like siblings...and also..they can be a total stranger to us. parents play the main role here. i think i know all my cousins well..my late grandma once said,

' anak beranak nih kene slalu ingat..pah tak dok sapo2 gak, sapo lagi nk tolong kalu dok sedara mara'

and wht i did was totally opposite.hehehhee.. segan lah nk kenal ngn sedara mara..i know its not good, but i think it is because i grew up inn hostel. i spent almost half of my life in hostel since 13-24 years old.. surrounded with friends. after i went back working at my hometown, i always..always hear this from people,

' ehh... dah nih sapo?'

and my mom or my dad will say,

'nih anak tino kita laa'


'doh bakpo x rajing tengok..'

yerp..i heard it many times. i tried my best to know my relatives. but now, i'm working outside and i hardly have chances like before to know everyone like i used to have when i stayed at home last 2 years. hurmm...kenali lah saudara kita. jom!

come to the the centre of wht i;m going to tell here ..hahahhaa..jauh menyimpang. so we went back and farah slept before me. i couldnt sleep.maybe because the effect of the caffeine. then i watched CSI back to back..CSI NY n MIAMI... uhuuu.. and guess who's in it..ashley simpson and pete weisz..hahhaha..then after it ended, i still cant sleep..turn to farah...hurmm memang dah tidur! then change to chanel DIVA..and there was a movie just about to start. hurmm ..i think i wanna watch this until i feel sleepy. but the story was so good. and i waited until the last minute it ended. and at that time, its already 4 am.

i dont know how i fell asleep but i know that  had a dream. and KAMAL..i met you there. hahahhaha... and i can remmber it well..yes you..KAMAL.

bicara mak...

Walaupun tak sampai sehari aku di rumah sabtu lalu..namun banyak sangat benda masuk dalam pikiran berlari2 mencari tempat untuk aku ambil satu2 untuk dianalisa..hurmm..selepas kejadian gi kebun tuh, aku masih ingat lagi..aku ngn mak ngn adik..masing2 kepenatan..balik rumah sambil sembang kat depan rumah..ayah x der..ke kampung sebelah untuk amik hasil titik peluh beliau dengan mak selama 9 hari..tengah2 duk sembang..ayah balik dengan sengeh sampai ke pipi..dapat dalam seribu lebey katanya,,wah banyak tuh..sempat aku buat lawak..

"ayah, kalo mcm nih orang berhenti je lah jadi lecturer..balik noreh getah..kaya jugak.."

ayah sengeh aje.aku sempat kalih kat mak , aku bg tahu

" nak wat apa laa duit banyak2 nih..dia tuh duk 2 jer kat rumah.."

mak jawap

" demo nak mewah..mak pun nk mewah jugak.."

dia sempat diam sebentar dan kemudian sambung..

" mak nak mewah kut lain plok"

aku kurang paham..nak mewah kut lain?? tapi aku angguk seperti aku paham..hurmm apa maksud mak..hurmm mungkin dia nk beli barang kemas kot...tak pon ..ish ..entah laa..aku terus diam je..dah habis penat..aku berlawan dengan kemalas melampau untuk mandi..aduss..malas!duk tolak2 ngn adik aku suruh dia mandi dulu...sempat sakat dia dengan sorok duit seratus dia dalam periuk elektrik..kah kah kah..marah benar dia..mejerit dia suruh bagi tau kat mana duit..masa tuh aku dah lepas ke dalam bilik air..hahhahahaha..seronok jugak ..last2 kesian..bg tahu jugak..

habis je mandi..mak datang kat aku..cuit bahu..katanya:

" mie, mak hajat nk kongsi duit ngn ayah , mak nak buat tempat usung mayat pastu sedekah kat surau kita"

aku terkejut..apsal plak tiba2 nih..aku balas

" eh , betul ke mak?..urmm..bagus jugak tuh"

mak aku sambung..

"mak ingat nk bg tahu anak-anak..sapa nak hulur sikit2 sorang..kita pakat2 ah duit.."

aku angguk setuju..tiba2 mcm semangat..

"bagus jugak mak..setuju2..ore setuju"

tapi masih lagi berputar2 dalam otak...apsal tetiba je mak n ayah aku nih..x der angin x der apa..tapi mak aku huraikan kekusutan..katanya

"tak de...hari tuh kak nora mu bg tahu..abe uji pakat2 ngn geng2 dia nk sedekah tempat mandi mayat..alaa macam tempat yg mandi arwah makjah tuh..haa dia nk wat gitu laa..dah dia nk pakat ngn geng2 sumat dia tu"

sempat lagi mak aku kutuk abg ipar aku..hahhahahha..aku tergelak kecik..mak sambung

" mak n ayah mari terpikir..dah abe uji nk wat tempat mandi mayat..kita wat tempat usung mayat laa"

ooooo..gitu ceritanya..patut laa..hurmm, bagus nya laa abg ipar aku tuh. abe ipar terbaik!

" ok mak..ore setuju2..bagus2..buleh2"

semangat benar aku.. mak cakap

" ayah mu ada tanya..dah mcm mana kalu anak2 x nak bagi..? mak cakap laa..dorang x nak, kita dua dah ler..."

ish, ayah nih, selalu pikir negatif tau. mie nak je ayah bg..yer laa..gaji beribu2 pun..last2 tak tahu gak mana pergi duit mie..lagi bagus kalu bagi je sedekah2 macam nih..kan?

"mak ingat nk talipon abg mu..bg tahu bende nih.."

aku balas

"wat pe nk talipon..petang nih mak ikot laa kerol hantar org ke kemaman..jumpa terus..lagipun mak x pernah gi lagi kan?jom ah"

"buleh jugak tuh" cepat aje mak reply..rindu kat abg kot.

last2 dah sampai umah abg..aku tak update plak ngn mak dah bg tahu ek belum kat abg..kat abg zeni pun aku tak tanya..lupa..time menulis nih je teringat..nanti2 lah..

sebelum aku melangkah untuk solat zohor, mak sempat bagi tahu..

" ini lah yang maksudkan dengan nak mewah ikut lain nih, nak mewah ikut 'nung'.."

ohhhhhhhhh...dalam benar maksud mak tadi...insaf sekejap.

*nung-akhirat.

"lautan derita tidak bertepi..."

Malam jumaat lepas bertolak dari tanjung malim ke Chalok, Setiu. adik yang amik kat KT. sampai je kat rumah, mak n ayah tengah siap2 nak ke kebun getah.. katanya nk kutip getah hari nih. aku yang memang pening tak cukup tidur buat endah x endah jer. malas yang amat. mak cakap

 "kerol, mari lah cepat2 gi kutiip getah..buleh cepat siap"

aku buat tak tahu lagi..siap2 sembahyang subuh, aku terus humban ke katil..niat nk tidur terus. adik aku tiba -tiba datang heret kaki aku

"ming! mari ah ..mari ngutip getah...mari!"

tak puas hati dia sorang je yg kene pergi. aku keraskan badan..

"malas!"..

adik aku putus asa..terus ke dapur siap2.sambil tarik selimut..tiba terdetik kat hati aku..'agak2 apa laa mak aku pikir...ada kemungkinan tak dia pikir..aku dah tak nak keje busuk2 nih sebb dah kerja dan dah berkerjaya....hurmm...pikir punya pikir..aish..x sedap ati..terus bangun panggil adik aku

 "yo! aku gi etek."

 pergi lah ke kebun ..kutip getah ..penat memang penat..busuk memang busuk..tapi tgk muka mak n ayah..senyum bila aku sampai. nak jadikan cerita..abis kutip getah..berhenti makan di kedai..aku mak ayah n adik..tiba2 yang empunya kedai, kami panggil pakdo..datang join...katanya

 " nih aku nk royak ke mung dua ore..nak dengar ke dok?"

aku senyum angguk..dia sambung

 " nih mung tgk mak mung ..mu tgk ayah mung molek..tgk titik2 peluh dia nih"

..aku tgk ayah...dia senyum..pak do sambng lagi

 " ingatlah dirimu..segala titik peluh penat derita ibu dan ayahmu..biarlah ia menjadi lukisan di sudut hati sanubarimu hingga ke akhir hayat"

AKU DIAM sebak dan kagum bercampur...*mulut ternganga... pakdo yang memang dah tua dalam 70 ++ , tinggal di ceruk kampung...boleh keluarkan ayat itu..terdetik di hati..mungkin dia pembaca sastera satu masa dulu..otak melayang duk pikir..mana dia dapat keluarkan ayat2 begitu...aku balas

" wowww...pakdo...bijak nya"

pakdo tak berhenti di situ..sambung lagi

 " sesungguhnya lautan derita itu tidak bertepi..selalu menghempas pantai bahagia tanpa henti..namun tanjung tidak sesekali akan berubah"

MELOPONG lagi aku.. aku terus mencelah...

"pakdo, maksud tanjung tuh gapo?"

soalan ikhlas...memang aku tak tahu maksudnya..yang lain aku dapat lah nak mengagak..

"ish..mung org terpelajar ..pikir lah sendiri"

tersentak...tapi selagi aku tak paham..aku rela dikritik..aku tanya lagi..memang aku tak tahu..jawap pakdo

"itu gambaran ibu bapa mu..walau apa pun terjadi..anak2 ingat ke tak ingat ke..cubaan hidup..dugaan ke..mereka tetap tguh..tanpa berubah..kasih sayang terhadap anak tetap utuh"

aku DIAM lagi....dalam maksud nya itu..

 " perghhhh..pakdo blaja sastera ke dulu?"

dia gelak..banyak kali aku tanya soalan sama..dia ketawa saja...akhirnya dia menjawap..

"kenal HAMKA?"

aku angguk walaupun samar2 saja yang aku tahu tentang tokoh sastera melayu terbilang  itu..

"dia guru aku dulu..ketika aku di kota bharu"

kata pakdo..ohhhh patut lahh..sebelum pulang..aku sempat beritahu dia..mungkin patut student2 datang buat research...suruh pakdo tulis 2/3 nukilan untuk di analisis..pasti menarik..

" jange buat pasal laaa!"

balasnya..namun sempat dia mengucapkan satu ayat yang membuat aku tertarik..

 " nak dengar lagi gak..marilah ngadap nga aku lain kali"

hurmmm menarik...

Ana Raffali - Tolong Ingatkan Aku

me 17 years old

missing this moment..

i'm empty

i woke up and i dont know what to do..what to think..i just dont know. sometimes i feel like i have nothing inside but still i dont want to fill it. ALLAH, show me the light pls.

TATIUC convocation...my first convo ...as a lecturer

huda, farah and me

huda n me

me and farah

9/10/10 TATIUC's convocation day. as i said, this is my first time being in the hall as a lecturer. pretty weird but excited at the same time.alhamdulillah everything went smooth and successful.

AMIRUL HAMIZAN is our first hero for this edition!

Terima Kasih hero kita...amirul hamizan ibrahim..selepas kontroversi dengan dadah dan pengurusan... dan terlepas komanwel 2006 kerana itu...akhirnya dia berjaya padamkan segala-galanya dengan satu hadiah yang amat bermakna...emas! terima kasih.

I-City

Dari awal tahun spupu aku duk sibuk ngn I-City, aku pun blur jugak..apa kebende i-city tuh..katanya ada lampu-lampu..hurmm depan umah aku pun ada lampu jalan betul2 depan umah makteh. tapi last week, i got a chance to go there. i asked my bro to bring me along with him and my best friend, nani.. and also my nieces kakak n kakngah.. when we got there, wow..kindof amaze of the place. beautiful but my friends said that, a lot of lamps already not functioning..yes, i saw that. but still it is a cool place especially for kids. unfortunately for both of my nieces, we got there nearly at 12am, so they were not excited at all because too tired after being in cinema watching magika...so these are few of the pics..

kakngah, pomat, kakak

muka dah letih..

big empty tanglong

love this tree.

love this pic!

try to smile..hiding the tiredness

when i have to have a break..lenguh

we were here.

my birthday

my birthday is on 26/9. and i got no present. :( but not that sad...because it's very rare to find me to celebrate my birthday..so ..its ok lah!

malam raya: mak sakit perut..tp stil ok, aku pun x sedar mak sakit..xtvt bakar sate tetap jalan..raya pertama was really different, mak cannot woke up because her stomach ache got worse..terkejut gi tgk mak dalam bilik.rupanya dah muntah 2 3 kali semalam. after semayang raya..cepat2 balik dr surau..hantar mak ke hospital..giler lama menunggu. risau gak. *dapat laa tgk org2 sakit pakai baju raya..sampai kul 12 kat umah..*so, tiada istilah pagi raya sambil2 amik gambar.aku tersadar dalam hospital menunggu. but i'm happy because at least i feel better than just waiting at home.. petang raya, mak makin teruk.. perut mak macam pregant 5 bulan..keras..giler takut. *sebb mmg mak ada history kene buatan org masa dia muda2 dulu...so maybe ada effect laa samai skang..petang tuh aku ada tanya mak.

" mak, sakit sangat ker?"

 mak jawab " yer..sakit sangat" ..

jarang sangat mak cakap sakit..kalo dah cakap mcm tuh memang betul2 sakit laa tuh.. aku tanya lagi

" mak, boleh tahan ker tak?"

and she replied " tak leh tahan dah"

so wht i can do is call someone yang tahu sket2 cara traditional. malam tuh mak muntah lagi..banyak kali. mak mintak aku tidur ngan dia *kalo mak x mintak pun aku memang akan tidur ngn dia. mcm x sanggup nk tinggal. dan dia muntah lagi. pagi tadi, aku tanya nk gi hospital x?dia cakap biar dulu..alhamdulilah sangat2, tgh hari tadi dia dah ok..semua dia dah sendawa..so angin dh x der..lega gila...

*even skang dia baru je datang tgk aku menaip nih...alhamdulillah ya Allah.happy eid mubarak. semoga pagi hari ray kalian punya cerita berbeza..and happier than mine. (saturday, 11 Sept)

taken yesterday.. i feel so YELLOW..

'mini' reunion

eid-fitr 2010

ayahanda: A.Ghani Bin Mohd

me and khalif nu'man

alima, khaleeda, afiqah



me, kak sa, kak la



kak, me, kak sa, kak la

zikir harian

Petronas Merdeka 2010 - Kereta Buruk

mukhsin nih memang hensem + cute+ innocent + talented abis!!

Iklan Raya tv3

dont know wht to say lah..its mixed up..this ads i think is trying to promote bout 1 malaysia where all religions have the chance to celebrate raya together but then, after i tried to be understanding yet..it is still feeling something wrong somewhere. hurmm... despite of many muslims opposed and against this ads, i hope the christian n budhais can get this right,, we are not against ur religion. but we r trying to avoid the confusing that will further occur because of this ads, harap mende nih x jadi issue panas cakap muslim memperlekehka agama lain..tidak yer,,cuma ads nih agak pelik dan agak tidak wajar.

Indonesia nak serang Malaysia?

so many blog talking bout this issue. its not sure the truth of it but it is confirmed that there is a group of indonesian people now are promoting the people to be the volunteer in preparing to face this possibility. it is really weird because as we know the president of Indo wanted to settle this issue on table. but the people * i call them as ignorant..want to have a war.. come on. most of us are sharing the same religion and now it is in ramadhan month. why should be fighting each other, but latter i got to know that, the person behind this issue is non Muslim. wht can we say more. if he is Muslim, i believe he wont try to kill the peace that we have now in this sacred month. but he is non muslim. so wht does he care? the other thing that came into my mind is.. Malaysia is like do not care about this.. i know it is not really matter to us because we are comfortable woth wht we have now. we experience the richness of our economy and our freedom. remind urself that, this kind of issue will someday stop everything. then we realize how we are so ignorant. maybe, malay is very kindhearted. i cant differentiate between kindhearted or we are actually weak. dont know. malaysia.. wake up! we have to so something bout this.  *kind of regret bout wht we did to them when they faced the dtsunami disaster...pls noted that, malaysia is the first country who went to send our hands there. but wht we got from them? shit!and ashes of our proud flag..celaka.

Gambar Proton Waja Baru 2010 | E J U M | B L O G

Gambar Proton Waja Baru 2010 E J U M B L O G

i came across with a blog.. amusing..

when people are talking about wht happening now.. about katy lim and stuff..there is another person who being discovered by the bloggers that saying something rediculously oversaid and it is hitting the sensitivity of Islam. the irony is..the person who being discussed, commented bout the post!about himself. try to defend wht has being said by him..its stupid. salleh salleh salleh...when u made a statement ' FOR THOSE YANG PUASA..FUCK YOU OFF' i replied..fuck u back! but i hope other people reacts worser than me coz u deserve it.

KATY LIM LI LIAN, jgn cari pasal..

i'm dissappointed when i read this on yesterday newspaper..i thought that malaysian are already understand how crucial is the understanding among races and religions here. so many ads and campaign is shown and used in order to get people to respect each other. but then, still this issue came one by one. sometime you need not to throw out all ur words becouse u never know the effect of it to others..KATY LIM LI LIAN, u are in a deep shit. u have to take wht ever damage u have done. u must be really happy coz ur words are heard by us. have fun with ur life from now on.

hurmm... 2008..gelap..gemuk..ge ge ge..

seingat aku..ramadhan 2001

Tahun 2001 sangat mengujakan buat budak2 yg lahir tahun 1984. SPM akan dihadapi. masa tuh boleh ckp aku memang x berapa serius..tapi x der lah mcm PMR..langsung x der preparation..untuk SPM a few changes i did for the sake of myself. masih segar lagi.. that year we have to sit for exam in the month of ramadhan. really challenging. but at the same time..exciting. just to refresh an incident that happened in one of the night. masa tu baru pas terawih so.lepak2 dalam bilik.masa tuh semua geng2 aku 10 orang duk satu dorm. rapat2kan katil and share our notes. aku, tkah, mah, siti, idah, kinah, ida, yati, lina and meklong..giler nostalgic beb..tiba2 jer bunyi mercun giler kuat and bilik kami berasap penuh. geng2 laki baling mercun..ttepat2 kene tingkap bilik kami..memang x leh blah kalo terkejut. rasa mcm nk makan orang..terus keluar maki2. abis keluar *tapi tahap kosa kata dalam bab maki2 time tuh masih lemah..tidak secemerlang sekaran...hauahuahau..maklumlah budak SMKA kan.Mah ngn aku laa yg keluar marah2 tepi koridor..tiba2 mah keluarkan satu ayat.."gilo ko..abih beerraaasssapp dorm aku" dr nak marah...terus aku gelak 2 berenti2..sampai nk terkencing..memang lawak giler babeng ekspresi muka n ayat dia masa tuh..bila time bulan2 puasa mcm nih..teringat lah kenangan2 time musim SPM di wataniah..rasa mcm nk putar balik masa n stop time kat situ.. pergh..best woo..tambah plak aku skang tgh rancak duk plan untuk reunion nanti..raya ke 4..x sabar! nk jumpa sahabat2 handai dulu..cepat2 nk raya!

NEW LOOK

my page got its new look..and i like it.huhuhu..i will comment more afterwards ok..i got to go and see my brother..he wants to fix my old car..always give problems to me lah..hish

currently at tg malim...

early in the morning..i came all the way from Chukai and arrived at KL around 10.30 am..crazy man..it took only 3 hours and a half.. then my friend sent me to terminal putra Gombak..really miss that place you know,,uses to go there when i was still a student..changing clothes..and took the train to KLCC just to watch a movie..wooo...ok back to the story...i took the train to KL Sentral..normally i will spend at least an hour there to search few clothes and accessories but then.. i was running out of time..i got class at 3..so i took komuter to Rawang and i got there at 1..and you know wht..have to wait another one hour for the train to tg malim..urghhh.. i reached taman bahtera at 2.00..have to print my assigment..then i went to the class..it really made me feel good coz i got a quite good marks for the previous assgn.. and dr maiza also in a good mood.so..eventhough i felt like to fell coz of the tiredness..have to bare my mind and eyes to listen dr maiza's lecture..i think she did magic to me ..after all of her lecture..i never feel sleepy in her class..feel motivated instead..hurmm..and now..i'm in front of window..jst to get a better signal to be online..urgh..penat tangan nih...see u next time lah..ok bye..

ramadhan 2010

it's not easy to write a blog now..not in terms of writing it but to find a time to write it. its been 4 months since the last time i wrote here. and i'm not in UPSI anymore..i'm in TATIUC now..lecturing again. pretty wierd how i can accept the offer after quitting from KTB last year with the reason to focus on my master study..but now.. i'm working again and still continuing my master.. pretty easy. it is always my wish to work here. maybe because of the good impression that was given to me by a friend last two years. she said that if u work at tatiuc, ur future is pretty good. yes..it is a college that own by state gvernment. so. the salary also pretty good. much more better than KTB .. i got a thousand more than wht i got when i was in KTB.. but the experience that i got there is priceless. KTB always in my heart. it taught me the feeling of being a lecturer for the first time. ok forget bout that, so this month is ramadhan..i cant say that i try really hard to get wht ever offered by god in this month. but at least i can feel that this year is better than before. and i'm pretty sure that i can finish reciting al Quran by the end of this ramadhan..insyaAllah.. so..happy hari raya. and cheers.

happy moment...

mana nk cari

mana nk cari..cuba bg tahu..bukan x nak mcm org lain tau..nk kata demand tak pun...tapi itu laa..kosong laa!

nazhan n iman

keje keje keje

dah stat keje balik skang...lemas jugak bila tetiba keje banyak nih. time x der keje x sabar2 nk keje ..borink laa apa laa..tapi bila dah keje...gi kul 8 balik kul 5 lbey..baru menghargai masa2 terluang dulu..ikot suka nk bangn kul baper nk buat apa pun ..ikot suka ati..tapi skang berkejar2 kesana kemari smata2 nk dapatkan signature org..sampai baju krung aku terkejut kot..tetiba leh basah n busuk.selama ni mana ader.,dah laa x bawa banyak baju pun dtg upsi nih..yer laa kelas 3 hari seminggu..paling kurang pakai baju yg sama sebulan sekali jer. kalo dulu selang 2 minggu dah baju sama dah...skang..bila dh keje..risau laa..baju x der. seluar banyak ahh..tapi mcm x sesuai plak nk masuk meeting ... org lain pakai seluar nampak ok jer..sopan jer..kalo aku pakai..nampak rugged semcam..x tahu la kenapa..pembawaan diri kot. sebb tuh kene pakai baju kurung..sekurang2 nyer nampak laa ayu sket kan...hurm... nk balik kampung.nak balik...